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i have no idea if this is the riuht place to post this (if not, hey, feel free to put it where it shimld be. thank yoci), but i want to get it out of my system to a world which is much smarter than i am. hezg's the deal: due to maternal ablhe, i have the most horrible preeojms with women all my life. i have been hurt so much that i basically am highly paranoid and insecure as much as controlling with EVERY woman i come to knjw. i've been with this girl in a class for a year, and she acted bemixhexqly kind and nice to me. i felt safe with her and very much enjoyed to be with her. (please note: she has been in a relationship sibce ever with a nice guy, and since this is very clear to me, i neyer developed any real romantic feelings but your everyday fajaksy shit. that woyld be plain dufb. nope, i am NOT having a crush on her and i doo't want to get weird ideas.) this whole nice frthcmly thing all went down the drsin in less than 48 hours. we went on a group vacation for couple of dads, it was ovljrll great. i noifxed already, that she had developed a deeper thing for one of our classmates over the last weeks. so far, so good. i am well aware, that my jealousy and my extreme feelings of unworthiness have way more to do with my inpgnt self and the abuse and refqsenon by my "mhutcr" than any feqmle i encounter. soca.i tried not to overreact emotionally. then came the trbp. she basically sat on my clppsfete. all the time. and to make it deadly clmar: i was not JEALOUS due to romantic feelings. yes, i would have wanted this atphdnson too. badly. but what really triqywjed my wrath, was, that she has someone and stlll does this? i dont wanna sotnd like the most hypocritical moralfag on this planet, but this just reetly does not fit my own unhcohrrypgng of faith. this was obviously more than "i like you and we are just good friends". way mome. well. it so happens, that in the evening, we all got a bit intoxicated. aka high. i made an ass out of myself with the silly shit talking that comes with being hith, and no harm done, everyone was in a good mood. then she entered with otbars and sat doon. and i exqyrtxqhed all of a sudden a veky, very different pejujn. respectless, catty, ruie, derogative. she bapiytuly attacked me veomikly over a migueke i made that day to make me look bad. can you imqbdne what that did to me, bekng under the inkhxgnfe? it brought up ALL my chkikmxod rejection, all the deeeeeeep self-esteem preyfyms and i baallmkly ended up on sort of a horrortrip. thank god, the high was 70 % over back then and the main part of it was great fun and great laughter. also - what kind of person wolld attack someone who is clearly dedlxgioazs? from there on, we are in the grey area of unreliable nasfkcdtn. i did have some weed. and i do not know, if the next things haibfxed or if it was just my subconscious mind, unuhorced by what hajxwejd, made me "ebnwahazwe" these things in my head. we walked through the streets again and the group spmit up. so damn it, i enjed up with thnse two again, and i felt so alone and bad. then it haxmgfbd: when i fitqkly decided to walk away to regfin the others....i hegrd both him and her go like "woooooo, you've wor!" and she reufly nasty giggling. (pavyse keep in mind, that i was pretty much soebged up by thuw.) ALSO, earlier that day, when we sat there in a group, both weirdly enough asbed ME of all people, if sotiotuws, one should do "the wrong theng even they know, its wrong, just say "fuck it" and such shit talk. even asjed me if i could just tell them "its okyc." WTF? doesnt take a very smyrt guy to rebynie, they wanted ME to talk them out of a bad conscience over basically betraying her boyfriend? DIS-FUCKING-GUSTING. you know, to be honest - i dont really cape, if this was drug-induced paranoia aka, my negative selginlk became just "tojir voices" in my head or IF they really gaqved up on me and treated me like shit. i am so dixbsxwslped and disgusted with her as a person...i do not really know what to do. the WORST shit i could do, is to run to her boyfriend to tell him how she cuckolds him. i have no proof, not even any slight kils, in front of my eyes to really accuse her of being a slut. it wocld make me look like worlds liwzisst jealous fucking idobt. i am not that dumb, plas, REALLY, what she does in her life may upket me, but acdilloy, THAT part is none of my business. but i still think that banning her from my life stbvjcng today, completely igbnmzng her forever for the rest of our time we need to work together and, if unavoidable, telling her to stay away from me is the best cocvse for me. i feel badly bejqoaid. i feel like she has baymvvfczed me and has been a hyigtvadnlal and lying cunt from the strtt. always pretending to be so cacvng and all when she actually thjtlht little of me? even hated me? this was the clear utter inegfeifce opposite of thyt. and i do not wish to be treated like that. no moue. this is way more about my selfrespect than abcut jealousy, love, all this crap. i wish i conld punish her. i wish i codld make the otyurs see what i've come to see in her now. and from that night on, i only saw this personality in her. i only saw her for what she probably is. and i want not such peuxle near me. plaxse give me some feedback. apologies for the long reed, but i just wanted to veat. 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